When I post this up it’s probably going to be February 2008(It’s still 31 January today). Which means it’s been officially more than 2 months since I’ve graduated! From my one year A-Levels course, in case you were wondering. I’ve finally finished editing all the photos and trust me, there are TONS of them. Sorry to all the dial-up users and if you’re using Digi’s Pay-As-You-Use plan, please leave before you go totally broke and bonkers, because trust me, it happened to me once.

Now that I have finally gotten my official results statement and made sure that there was no spelling error in my grades, I can finally seal this chapter in life and get ready to move on. (Because I’ve been so paranoid about the possibility of having to repeat my A-Levels, I hadn’t bothered to post this up because it would be so weird to still be in the same place if I had declared that I have emancipated from the school wth)

But now I’M FREE I’M FREE I’M FREE I’M FREE! At least for another few weeks. Ooo. And I dyed my hair too wth.

This year has been bittersweet. As I look back at all the photos (which, I must say is a HELL lot. compiled in the ‘YSC Science Camp’ folder alone are 3GB of photos!!) the memories come flooding back and it feels almost ironic that a year+a month ago today, I had never heard of Institut Sinaran (which is where I graduated from) before.

Okay, before I go all super duper emo and start blogging so emo-ish-ly and use words that are so hair-raising, I better start inserting photos.

(ps. Vui, you can steal them now They’ll not be watermarked)

Starting with the day before graduation, after we got our robes/gowns/whatever you call that thing we were wearing.

OMG DO I HAVE TO CAPTION EVERYONE?? Aiya you know who they are la. If you don’t but would like to know who’s who and who’s not who then just leave a comment la. It’s 12.33 am and I’m lazy wth.

Mr and Mrs Smith wannabes. Only hotter wth lol. Me and Melanie, who always complains that I write too much. Nah! Photo post for you! Although you already have the photos.

Joey Lim Joey. Hula hoops aren’t the best solution to lose weight Joey. Find other alternatives la Joey. Later go to Adelaide downgrade yourself from low grade to no grade then you know la kan kan kan?

WHOEVER MANAGES TO COUNT THE NUMBER OF ‘LOVE’S IN THIS PHOTO CORRECTLY WINS A VERY SPECIAL PRIZE!! ….A WHOLE LOT OF LOVE FROM ALL THE LOVING PEOPLE IN THE WORLD!!!!! =.=

I’m not in this photo but I’m posting it up anyway because I sometimes believe some people just need more attention because if they don’t get noticed they’re going to bitch and moan about it and that is not very nice. Of course I’m not talking about Joey and Vui.

Me and lilian before she decided that shopping in KL was a better choice than attending graduation. AND SHE WAS SO DAMN RIGHT! This has got to be one of our most sane and formal photos around.

Joey looking so genuinely happy cuz she’s never been surrounded by 2 hot guys before wth.

Lilian pretending to be having a tough time deciding between me and Ryan because she didn’t wanna hurt Ryan. Awwww isn’t she the nicest? Lol

Zing Wen and I. Oh and half of Nelson. Nothing much to say bout this pic ler. It’s just sweet.

Soul and I. And my super dry lips. And my super show stealing thumb. (I shall blog about it soon although Elaine says nobody would want to read about it anyway)

Although your internet is seemi

ngly failing you by now but I’m going to post MORE MORE MORE photos anyway because I have so MANY MANY MANY MANY photos left to insert.

On Graduation Day itself, in random order:

*Gasps* I actually have a decent photo of myself onstage! Oh by the way, did anyone shake hands with Mr Chok that day because I totally skipped him because he didn’t stick his hand out in the first place and I saw that everyone skipped him too. So did you skip him too? I still like him tho. Hahaha.

Me, Mr Teh and Zing Wen. Ryan why your hands so shaky? See, you made the photo blurry already lah!

Let’s play ‘WHO LOOKED AT THE RIGHT CAMERA’!!

A bunch of bowling alley part time workers receiving their letters of appreciation. With their Chemistry Lecturer.

Ka Mann, who went to Germany but didn’t buy me anything and then tried to make me believe that she went to Germany. *kepo tone* Are you still with Rain??

Joey and I. Again. See Joey you don’t need to lose weight also got people give you flower. And yes you’re already a size 0.

Ing Ni , who’s on the way to becoming.. *inserts super dramatic music that causes adrenaline rush to the max* THE NEXT TOP DERMATOLOGIST.

Elaine, who thinks she’s fat but thin. Who thinks she’s ugly but pretty. Who thinks I’m her best friend but hates me.

ps. I look EXACTLY THE SAME in EVERY photo (if you could tell that means you have good observation) but it was really me and not a wax figurine of myself or something! Honest.

Terry, who’s the most helpful person on earth. Period. And fun and smart and loyal and witty and and and…

Me and Cassandra, who wants me to post her pic and say something nice about her. Done.

Me and Ryan. We don’t have a decent photo.

OMG OMG WE DO!!

6 people trying to outshine one another but no one succeeded.

May Yan, who got 4A’s by watching a lot of TV and I hate her.

Kang Ni, whose birthday is the most anticipated because she gives out chocolate!!!

Roger, the future singing doctor who is going to revive a vegetable. wth

Max, who gave the best speech and sounded like he actually wrote it. Which he did. (2 lines, was it?)

P’ng, who’s going to be on TIME, shaking hands with Terry.

Nelson, who always turns a dessert into an igloo with his super cold jokes. *shivers*

Ah Seng, who makes me feel like the sloth that I so am. Who got A’s for all the papers. *chiu….*

Soul, who makes everyone look like sloths. Soul, when you get your super professional camera which I wouldn’t have a clue about you can throw your other camera to me because it makes my teeth look so straight! wth.

The Four Musketeers. Who loved Monopoly more and more as A-Levels drew closer and closer wth.

To end this super long photo post,

Let’s play ‘Who Looked at the Right Camera’ again!

I love you guys!

All the best in everything (I’m too tired to think of better wishes because it’s 2.10am!!) and if you ever forget me I’ll slap you flat flat.

Cya!

ps. Only 33 photos ler. Maybe that’s not so many after all.

XOXO

I’ve been so ignorant for way too long.

I don’t normally read any news and even if I DO go to Google News, normally I’ll just turn a blind eye on all the riots and chaos in this world and just skip right through to the ‘Entertainment’ section.

I don’t care if VK Lingam’s really bribing anyone with whatsoever because for all you know, everyone’s probably doing the same. There’s really nothing surprising about the act itself. The only thing worth the news is the fact that it was actually CAUGHT ON TAPE and is being spread all over the internet.

And too bad Edison Chen’s sex scandal with Gillian Chung/Bobo Chan got splattered all over the net because again, for all you know, thousands of other people were probably having sex and filming it down that time, just that nobody bothered to hack into their cameras/computers. OMG that came off so wrong.

But I seriously can’t not care about the bus crash at Slim River which took away another 3 innocent lives.

Here’s an excerpt from this article.

Family mourns loss of beautiful, intelligent go-getter

By ANDREA FILMER

PENANG: She had the world at her feet but death robbed medical student Lee Nian Ning of a brilliant future. 

The straight As student, former state swimmer and accomplished Girl Guide was on the double-decker express bus from Penang to Kuala Lumpur which crashed near Slim River on Friday. 

Nian Ning, 21, a Public Service Department (PSD) scholar at the University of New South Wales in Australia who was on her way to visit friends in Kuala Lumpur, was among three passengers who perished when the driver lost control of the bus and slammed into a divider.

More information can be found here.

It’s at a time like this when I count my blessings because it could have just been anyone I knew.

SOMETHING needs to be done. What infuriates me the most is why the bus driver was even allowed to drive in the first place. IT (the driver) had not one, not two, not three, (this could go on forever) BUT THIRTEEN FREAKING SUMMONSES AGAINST HIM! Gee, I didn’t know the more summonses you get, the more efficient are your driving skills. So efficient indeed, rumour has it that the driver even had time to SMS while speeding at the same time.

Having said that, Bloggers, do your work:

Please post this on your blog now to help:

Chung Lern and Nian Ning’s families would like all families and friends of the victims, dead or alive, in the Slim River Bus Crash to come forward and join them in taking action against the bus company. Stand up to seek justice for these three innocent individuals, who were all so young and full of life.

If you have a blog, please call out to ANYONE who

knows someone who survived or did not survive

the crash to come forward to join the Lee family.

Make a huge difference, make a huge fuss.

For now, you may contact Lee Chung Lern at chunglern@gmail.com or preferably on his handphone at 012-6670368.

Please head over HERE to sign the petition so hopefully, someone will take action to prevent anything like this from repeating itself.

Remember, next time, it could just be ME or YOU. Prevention is always better than cure.

Sad enough to say, although I don’t quite believe in justice anymore, I still believe in karma.

Goodbye.

XOXO

EDIT: I got Google searches for Edison sex tape/Gillian Chung sex antics. LOL. Seriously? SERIOUSLY? Maybe I should apologize for disappointing people.

ps. Sign the petition already! It’s so simple!

OMG I’m getting worse at choosing titles. Delta Goodrem is not another Britney Spears wannabe? Lol. That’s only like the lamest title I’ve ever chosen for my blog post! (Although I only have err 15 posts but still, it is very lame) But whatever. I’m not going to change it. Bleh.

Today I have chosen to blog about none other than…… *drumrolls* …..

DELTA GOODREM!

And the reason I’m doing this is because I feel that I don’t talk about her enough (only enough to make everyone groan and roll their eyes every time I mention her name) so it is only fair that I blog about her today! It’s not my fault that I talk about her way over the limit because she just has that effect on people. You don’t see Jessica Alba’s fans talking about her 24/7 (because they spend too much time drooling over her hot bod) and you don’t see Tom Cruise’s fans talking about him all day long (because he scared most of them away by erratically jumping on Oprah’s couch, I bet) but I’M 99% SURE THAT MOST, IF NOT ALL, DELTA FANS TALK ABOUT HER SO MUCH THAT IT ANNOYS THE HECK OUT OF PEOPLE WHO AREN’T HER FANS.

Some people like to compare Delta and Britney but the only thing they have in common is probably their hair colour (brunette turned blonde and vice versa). And maybe their taste in men (I’m not being sour).

Delta Goodrem, 23, was born in some state in Australia and grew up in some state in Australia. (My Geography stinks) Yes, that makes Delta Goodrem a totally patriotic Aussie who is only popular in Australia. FOR NOW. No, I’m not trying to blast her here.

Before I start explaining why I totally adore Delta and why you should too, let me just give you a few fast facts.

1. Delta Goodrem is an Australian artiste who has sold over 2.5 million albums worldwide according to Wikipedia. In Australia alone, the number exceeds 1000000 (look at all the zeroes!) and this is totally not surprising because from her official forums, I found out that most of her fans would buy at least 3 copies of the SAME ALBUM and some even buy up to TEN COPIES OF THE SAME THING! This is because they need a copy for their car, another for their living room, another for the cd player in the bedroom, one copy just in case the other copy gets scratched, another to be given out to their friends so that they can share the love for Delta together et cetera. THIS IS NOT FICTIONAL.

2. Delta is TALL. Look.

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FYI, she’s on the right.

She’s not exactly the tallest girl on earth but still, 178 cm is already really tall for a girl imo. And she wears like 4 inch heels wth.

3. Delta was born on 9 November, the same date as one of my friends, so it’s very easy for me to remember/forget both their birthdays.

4. At the peak of her career, at the age of 18, on July 8 (according to one of her songs) Delta was diagnosed with Hodgkin’s Lymphoma, a form of cancer that attacks the immune system. Again, the date is another friend’s birthday wth.

5. Apart from having the talk-about-me-all-day-long effect on people, Delta’s songs have this put-me-on-repeat-forever-and-ever effect on people as well. I remember 2 years ago, after watching her performance on the Commonwealth Games, I downloaded ‘Together We Are One’ and just played the same song over and over again every time my computer was on. That went on for a week I think. Lol. Everyone in the house got so annoyed by that song I bet.

For those who didn’t know, I actually grew up listening to her songs wth. Okay so it may not sound very logical to actually ‘grow up’ listening to songs by someone who’s only 6 years older but it IS true!

The first time I heard about Delta, it was all the way back in 2003 when I was only 13 and still very childish and would laugh at a friend who described her dad as being ‘hot TEMPERATURE’ instead of being ‘hot-tempered’ and then someone started the whole deal of calling her "Kalimantan English" (no offense) and that went on for quite some time. Hahaha. But that was 5 years ago. 5 years later, I’ve grown into a 17+8months super mature grown up who would forgive and not make a mountain out of a molehill even when people say ‘You was’ wth. LOL.

I’ve grown SO MUCH. And so had Delta! wth

I remember the first time I saw her on MTV, she looked like the average teen star trying to make it big in the music industry. I didn’t quite like her at first because she didn’t look very pretty wth she looked a little like a popstar wannabe and she sounded weird trying to hit a high note in her first single ‘Born To Try’ (it was completely in tune but still, it sounded kinda unpleasing to me). Ironically, if it weren’t for that song, I wouldn’t have discovered her and then come to like her as much as I do now. Also, it was that song that became her first number one single in Australia. She has EIGHT now. And still counting of course.

It was so hard to find her first album in Miri and I remember going to every mall here (there are only four but still…) and finally found it! Only the cassette though, (gosh that was so long ago wasn’t it? they don’t even have cassettes anymore now) and I was so so excited to have finally found it. Not to mention a bit shocked that they actually have it here. ‘Innocent Eyes’ was her first album and in Australia, it became her first #1 album, stayed there for TWENTY NINE (29) WEEKS or so and was certified FOURTEEN (14) TIMES PLATINUM!! It was also considerably successful in the UK, where it peaked at #2, only losing out to Beyonce’s ‘Dangerously In Love’ most probably because of the difference in the outfits they wore in their album covers.  Delta was wearing a demure brown babydoll-ish top …

While on the other hand, Beyonce was wearing ummmm…

what’s that?

Sex really does sell, doesn’t it?

Again, I recall the first time I talked about her with my friends, someone told me she had just been diagnosed with stomach cancer. Another someone told me it was Leukemia. Where do people get all the news anyway? It was Hodgkin’s disease la!

Of course, being a fan, I was really saddened by the news.

This is NOT the part where I send my condolences and start crying out loud *touch wood* because Delta survived cancer is very much alive now and MORE ALIVE than ever, whatever that means.

In fact, Delta was so great she released her 2nd album right after she recovered wth. I remember it came out around the time I was sitting for PMR and I would go to ninemsn everyday to listen to the songs that they pre-released instead of looking for PMR tips wth. Looking back, it was actually a good thing that they let us preview one new song per day or else I would have just stuck my ears to the speakers the whole day and do nothing else.

My personal favourite from the album (and of all time) is a song called ‘Fragile’ which helped me through the sickest and most awful days, which accompanied me when I cried on my keyboard (just kidding. I’m too happy a person to cry about my miserable life wth), which got me made me feel like I’m not alone when I so am and vice versa wth.

It disappointed me a little that the album didn’t do as well as her first album and I think it’s solely because of the single choices. The album has so many fantastic songs but I still have no idea why so many people totally overrated the title single ‘Mistaken Identity’ to the point that she actually released it as a single. Okay, so maybe it was her favourite song on the album? Anyway, everyone LOVED the song so much that EVERYONE FORGOT TO BUY IT WHEN IT CAME OUT. So much for loving it to the very maximum level of love. *rolls eyes* Unfortunately, her streak of #1 singles got broken and the single didn’t even make it to the Top 10. Which is why you should love her because despite being almost perfect, not all her singles reached Top 10.

You know when songs like The Ketchup Song and Macarena were first released, they reach #1 all around the world and then 5 years later, they get the same position on ‘The Most Annoying Songs Of All Time’. That will NEVER EVER happen to any Delta song!

I’m not kidding when I tell you that Delta’s songs are timeless classics. You can listen to her songs any time of the millennium and think they’re superb. Even when you’ve gotten sick of her songs after putting them on repeat 30 times a day, you’ll fall in love with them all over again in a different way after you listen to them again after some time. And the best part is, her songs won’t make you go all "OMFG I CAN’T BELIEVE I USED TO LIKE HER" because they’re just that great. Sometimes I think I should be her promoter or something.

However, when so many people like you, it is only logical that a lot of people would dislike you too. It’s just a ying and yang thing. When Delta tried to change her image JUST A WEE BIT, some loved it while others disregarded her as their idol once and for all. But I guess it’s their choice but in my opinion, PEOPLE CHANGE and that’s just the way of life. It’s not like she suddenly went cracko and decided to turn into a porn star and stop singing. It’s not like she stopped being an original and started copying lyrics off other singers’ songs. She still writes her own songs, composes her own melodies and the only thing that has changed was her fashion sense.

From the not-so-best-dressed list,

SOURCE

Delta FLEW all the way up to the top of the Best Dressed list.

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No wonder so many haters started voicing out because obviously, not everyone can wear a skin tight mini dress and pull it off.

Similarly, who else could look as gorgeous wearing ummmmm.. A MASSIVE CROW?

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With the release of her third album simply titled as ‘Delta’, Delta has proved to be an all-rounder. She’s not just your pretty girl next door, she’s multi-talented and now, FASHIONABLE AND SIZZLING TOO wth.

If you still don’t know her yet, head over to the nearest record store and I can bet that you won’t be able to find her latest album! WHY THE HELL IS MALAYSIA SO SLOW?????? WHY IS IT NOT RELEASED HERE YET? OH WHYYYYYYYYYYY???

WHY THE HELL IS NOBODY REPLYING MY FREAKING MESSAGES ON MSN???!! I really hate it when people appear to be ‘Online’ on MSN but then never ever reply my messages and then suddenly appear to be offline and never re-sign in until a few hours later. IT’S SO FREAKING IRRITATING OKAY?? And it makes the whole situation look like I’m pestering people when that is SO.NOT.TRUE. Bleh.

I’m so totally bored now and am so tired of searching for scholarships online and pressing calculators to count the tuition fees because unfortunately, my never ending prayers for Malaysian Ringgit to be of the same value as Euro never got fulfilled. WHY AH? WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY? And it’s so super duper hard to find medical scholarships and I swear the number of medical scholarships available is like NEXT TO ZERO. Again, WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY??? (I obviously know the answer to it but am still asking just to annoy you. Hmmph!)

And if you’re asking why am I doing it all by myself – the scholarship searching thing? IT’S BECAUSE THE EDUCATION CONSULTANTS IN MIRI ARE BULL CRAP SCAMMERS WHO DON’T KNOW DEADLINES ARE THERE TO BE ALTERED WTH. It’s because I’m independent la duh.

Maybe I shall just take one of the Architecture offers I have since they are actually enthusiastic enough to call me up and ask if I’m going to accept the offer. Which will then mean that there’s possibly going to be another leaning tower since I am unable to draw a single straight line.

Anyway, like I’ve mentioned before, I LOVE YOGUR BERRY. (wth I change topic like breathing out carbon dioxide)

It’s not just tasty (if you’re a yogurt fan like me, kinda), it’s healthy too! Look at all the fruits they gave me! (Damn those kiamsiap latenight-shift workers. Why give so little? It’s not like you own the place. Hmmph.) And for once, the skeptic in me actually believes what it’s advertised as – less fat, less calories blah blah blah – because I think it really is! Well, it is believable what! Unlike some other ice shop which claims that their ice is imported from some foreign country far far away and contains some sort of salt that can prevent/help/cure constipation and make your skin totally breathtaking and smooth which I think is just the smelliest bull crap around. Because if that’s true then ALL DOCTORS SHOULD JUST RETIRE AND EVERYONE SHOULD JUST GO AND EAT THEIR ICE EVERYDAY FOR THE REST OF OUR LIVES.

Having said all that, YOGUR BERRY’S yogurt ice cream (is that what it is btw? ) tastes just as good as it looks! I didn’t even have to edit the photo to make it look more heavenly because I’m just lazy it already looks that good as it is!

And here’s me holding it because I have nothing better to do.

Okay why the hell is it senget one? They should so train the workers there! (and no, I have nothing against them)

Oh by the way, the girl on the left is ELAINE YONG who just dropped like 10 pounds and looks like she walked out of the latest Harper’s Bazaar’s Fashion Don’ts Do’s editorial. And she’s SINGLE and AVAILABLE so guys out there, feel free to drop a comment to get her contact details. All you have to do is to make sure that you’re TALL, HOT, SMART, RICH AND LOVES HER MORE THAN ANYTHING.

Just kidding.

All she wants now is to get into a good uni just like everyone else in their right mind and it’s obviously going to happen and I’m like so sick of having to tell her that EVERY SINGLE TIME. Bleh.

EDIT: She still wants a tall, hot, smart and rich boyfriend who loves her more than anything.

AND LIN WEE KHANG ALTHOUGH YOU DON’T READ MY BLOG BECAUSE I’M NEITHER DEAD NOR SUPER FAMOUS, YOU STILL OWE ME TWO SCOOPS!

Maomei, who managed to suck out all my photogenic-ness lol and I (Jo pointed out that I should use ‘I’ and not ‘me’ because it’s grammatically wrong and that being someone who is considered to have ‘good’ English, I should know that wth)

Since this post is so random, I might as well just add more random photos because I don’t know where else to put them. And I haven’t adopted the habit of whipping out my camera anywhere anytime so I didn’t take a lot of photos.

some supposedly sakura tree which made every passerby ever so ‘sakai’ to snap a photo of it. I only did it because everyone else was doing it which is so not me but whatever.

The CNY decorations at my used-to-be second home, WARISAN SQUARE. They are such slakers you know, they only added some lanterns. The lights have been there since CHRISTMAS!

Plain but good enough deco at Asia City which is now so empty after all the hype because they tried to (and very successfully) con everyone’s money at their so-called ICE SKATING rink which uses wax instead of ice

Very cute chipmunks which I didn’t buy because I watched Child’s Play and every sequel thereafter. and the shopkeeper was so rude she tried to chase us out with the blaring speakers playing some really noisy and loud song. and it worked.

Me writing on hotel paper because everyone seems to have taken those pointless yet artistic photos so I decided to give it a try too but apparently, failed miserably. lol

Okay I
guess that’s all. If you want, you can scroll down to see my vain self-shots because I was told  that I look hot (which is no biggie since it happens all the time) in my celebratory outfit (I packed them just in case I did really well in my A Levels so I wouldn’t just be wearing t-shirt and jeans if we were to go out to celebrate which we didn’t) so now I’m going to wear it to EVERY SINGLE outing until it turns grey. And then I’m going to go back to the shop and get the exact same shirt and wear it til it turns grey again. And this will go on forever.

The size of the photos is just to save you from the eyesore.

Cya!

XOXO

*cough cough* This photo has nothing to do with what you’re about to read (or run away from) but I don’t have any photos that are related. SO, FAST FAST SEND ME THOSE NEWSPAPER CLIPPINGS!!!IF DON’T HAVE NEWSPAPER ARTICLES, PHOTOS OF U GUYS CARESSING/MAKING OUT WITH/SHOWING OFF YOUR RESULTS WILL DO TOO. Thanks, yea?

WARNING: This is kind of an emo post which might bore you.

I already knew quite clearly what I wanted to write here long before my decision to do it today. I’ve been thinking of what to write for different circumstances and ALMOST had both my contradicting ideas typed down before it even happened.

Most of you probably know my results by now but what you don’t know is what’s been going on in this head of mine in the midst of waiting for the final announcement.

In these 2 months, I’ve probably turned into the most superstitious person alive that nobody knows about lol.

I didn’t want to think of my results because it would make me start thinking of the possibilities and I think that might be taboo.

I didn’t want to discuss or talk about the possible results with anyone and would just leave the conversation once someone started it or I would change the topic or just keep quiet because I think it’s taboo to guess something so unpredictable.

I hated it when people snobbishly/sarcastically/insincerely asked if I was expecting to get straight A’s because I think that, too, is taboo.

I reluctantly responded to those people saying that I was sure to get 4A’s because I think it is taboo.

I just wanted to leave it all aside and be left alone so badly I could have gone crazy but luckily I’m a strong fighter wth.

You know, it sucks that a lot of stupid people think how smart you are depends on the number of A’s you score. Which is just utter bullshit. I quickly knew that I was going to be judged once I get my results – poor or excellent – because everyone can be so judgmental sometimes. I would be lying if I said I didn’t care about how they would perceive me as because in this case, I did. It would be too unfair because my results are supposed to be for MYSELF to prove MYSELF to MYSELF and nobody else. It’s just that simple. I have no intention in proving anyone right or wrong because sorry, that does not make me happy. So you can just stick your nose in someone else’s life and just leave me alone because you’re not going to get anything here. Hmmph! And don’t ask me who I’m directing this to because this is an open letter. Bleh. But if you’re reading this, I can pretty much assure you that it isn’t you because I KNOW the two of you left reading my blog. (One being myself hahahaha)

Waiting feels like hell on earth. Especially when you have to wait in uncertainty for TWO MONTHS which is so very very very long. Throughout this period of time, I got washed over by What-if’s and Should-have’s because it all seemed so far away and unpredictable to me. Of course, I only have myself to blame because if I had gone that extra mile and studied til my pants dropped, I wouldn’t be flooding myself with such doubts. Instead, I would have known that it wouldn’t be the end of the world no matter what happened as long as I had tried my hardest. Though, of course, I can’t say the same for others. At times when I felt like I was ready to move on, to leave for a better place (or not) and to make new friends at a new place, I got brought down by the realisation that everything was still so uncertain. I still had to wait for my results before I could finalize anything. And that sucked too.

Anyhow, I amazed myself by the fact that I managed to keep my mind off those things most of the time. The fact that not many people in Miri knew that I had actually completed the course and was waiting for my results helped a lot. Not to mention, the fact that they didn’t know when the results would be out helped even more. Lol.

Obviously, it’s a totally different case in KK. EVERYONE knows about it and EVERYONE TALKS about it. That was so helpful. NOT!

A day before the results were announced I went out and EVERYONE was talking about it. EVERYONE who was at Old Town with me talked about it. Terry and Lilian talked about it more in the car but I just kept quiet not because I was totally confident; the reason was the total opposite. By the time I got back to the hotel, my heart was pounding against my ribcage so hard I could almost hear it in my ears. The thought that the results would be out in less than 24 hours chilled me to the bone. No kidding.

Of course, if I don’t do well, I can always repeat my ‘A’ Levels for another half a year since I took the express class and am still relatively young-er. I remember May Yan thought the same too during the trial examinations because we seemed so ill-prepared. However, she did really well that time and I didn’t. But again, I’m a strong fighter and not at all a quitter. Wth?

On Monday (the day the results were announced), I think I woke up at around FOUR AM because I was too nervous or something but I didn’t bother to check the time because it would only make me more anxious to know that I had to wait SOME MORE. I didn’t get up and just waited in bed for time to pass by. It took a really long time before I fell asleep again. Madonna’s ‘Hung Up’ was playing in my mind the whole time. Wanna know why? It’s obvious, isn’t it?

"Times goes by so slowly…

Time goes by so slowly…

Time goes by so slowly…

I don’t know what to do"

Hahahaha.

Then around 9 I woke up because I had an appointment with my dermatologist that day. That morning, I was so overly paranoid and superstitious I became so cautious of the songs I listened to. The ultimate two songs I skipped were:

1. Fergie’s ‘London Bridge’ because there were so many Oh-shit’s in that song which is not what I would wanna say when I get my results.

2. Nelly Furtado’s ‘All Good Things (Come to an end)’ because THE TITLE SAYS IT ALL!

It’s funny now when I think back but it was a totally different story at that moment.

Anyway, I spent the next hour and a half waiting in the clinic, checking my watch every 5 minutes and the wait finally ended when I got a call from Ing Ni who broke the news to me.

The skeptic in me said don’t be overjoyed yet because I haven’t gotten the results myself. And when I was holding my provisional results slip, the skeptic in me told me that the official statement isn’t out yet so again, don’t be overjoyed.

I hate the skeptic in me!!

But now, I am HALF relieved. Because there’s still the statement with the component grades for the tests.

Nonetheless. in this very rare occasion, "I told you so&quot
; sounded a million times better than how a thousand words of consolation normally would.

This DEFINES ‘surreal’

All the best to everyone!

Cya!

Update: Statements will only be available starting 28 January. Damn. I went to KK too early!

Ps. Thank you to everyone who congratulated me through phone calls and sms-es and also to those who helped me spread the news like a bush fire.

XOXO