Sigh people. WHY AM I SO MINDLESS????????????????? I JUST DID THE STUPIDEST THING IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I CANNOT BELIEVE HOW MINDLESS AND STUPID I AM!!

The mindfulness exercise apparently didn’t work for me at all lor. So what if I could expand my mind to hear sounds of birds chirping and two lorries passing by when I can’t even send messages correctly. Haiz..

So sorry to spoil it la guys!! You will never ever ever ever ever ever believe what I just did!! I’m so mindless and idiotic and moronic and urghhh too stupid to think of anymore synonyms of stupid wth.

Guess what I just did??!!

I just sent Tim THE VERY message I wasn’t supposed to send him. Ok I’ll spill the beans.

I was sending out text messages to everyone who’s gonna be at Tim’s ‘surprise’ (now no more luuuuu) dinner tomorrow night but guess what??? I SENT IT TO HIM!!!!!!!

You know what that means?? He got this message: ‘Hey everyone! Be there early tomorrow k? Wanna give tim a surprise b4 d dinner. and ps, I bought the G-string already!!!!’

This isn’t the first time this has happened to me you know? Last year when I was buying Soul’s birthday present I sent SOUL HIMSELF a msg asking “Hey you guys wanna share for Soul’s birthday present?” HAIZ WHY AM I SO UN-MINDFUL???!!! But luckily that time Soul was super blur and I managed to cover up la..

I seriously am the biggest klutz in the world!!!!!! (((((((((((

EDIT: HI EVERYONE! THIS POST WAS A HOAX TO TRICK TIM INTO BELIEVING I ACCIDENTALLY SENT HIM THE MESSAGE.

The truth is, I sent the message to him on purpose and in fact, I sent the message to him ONLY! It was all part of the surprise we were going to give him. It’s a whole long story but to make things simple and sweet, last night was a blast! Photos will be up.. er.. not very soon.

Cya Everyone! Didn’t I sound convincing?

ps. The part about me texting Soul was true la. WHY AM I SO MINDLESS?? T______T

Yes this is going to be another very bimbotic post. Please bear with me for a few days while I get all the photos I just received edited and uploaded on Flickr.

Vain Issue No. 1: Haircut + New Hair Colour(s)
Eh how come nobody noticed any difference ah? I cut and dyed my hair again lor! Even got highlights this time. /Woooo T______T so sad that no one actually noticed and I had to point out but then people were still like “Har Really ah? I thought after you cut your hair already the colour still there” =.=

Okay. Proof!

Before:



LOL All the photos damn ugly hahahahaha. Ryan was sitting next to me when I uploaded the photos and he burst out laughing =.=

After:

Hahaha Damn biased post actually normal photos after I dyed my hair to make people think that the haircut made me look more sane wth. Actually I have better photos of the ‘before haircut’ period la but damn lazy to edit.

Vain Issue #2: My Brown Contacts
Eh are you guys blind or what? I wore colour contacts today lor. I chose Brown contacts on purpose so that I wouldn’t give anyone a scare lor. How dare you guys not notice the difference??!! My pupils are naturally super dark, if not totally black, and the brown contacts I wore made my eyes look like they were naturally brown OKAY? But I was still wearing colour contacts! Hmmmph!

Just now the fitting room in Esprit got damn nice lighting and managed to show that my eyes were actually brown so I shall post them up!!!

FASTER SAY YOU CAN SEE THAT THEY’RE ACTUALLY BROWN so that I won’t bug you with more photos like this:

Can see or not??? Oh and can see my highlights? Hahahahaha.. I hate that they’re playing peek-a-boo with me. One moment can see, the other cannot see already. Haih. The other time after I washed my hair after I just highlighted it, I got so pissed because I couldn’t see any of the highlights! The next day, I woke up and got freaked out by how obvious they were! Sigh.. highlights are so hard to manage.

Vain Issue #3: Terence’s Dilemma.
GUYS AND GIRLS, do you think that I should get this shirt that I saw and tried on and really liked? I’ve spent moderately this month but I think soon I’ll have a lot of shopping opportunities so if I bought the shirt I might feel guilty and then not buy anything next time even when there are better offers. And trust me, when I abstain myself from doing something, I really don’t do it! Like when I was on my fast food fast (and still am), I didn’t even have a single bite of my favourite burger in the world – Sugarbun’s Fish Burger!!! See how determined I am?

And this morning, I bought a can of Coffee at 8 am just in case I fell asleep in any of the lectures, but then never even opened it because I AM RESTRICTING MY BODY FROM ANY CONTACTS WITH CAFFEINE! I shall bring that can of coffee everyday and see how long I can last!

But I really like the shirt. T______T It’s very simple, but I still like it a lot. I have photos!!!! As usual.

Sigh this time didn’t take from all angles because the shirt only very simple and looks almost the same from every angle anyway.

What do you think??? The shirt is on a 50% sale and Ryan has like a 20% discount thing going on so after all the discounts it’s RM 80. The original price is RM 200. What do you think?? Sorry I very lazy to start a poll because I’m too sleepy and I don’t think anyone will vote either anyway. It’s just gonna be so redundant. And I’m not going to tell you which shop it was just in case you decided you want to buy it then later if I want to buy it don’t have already pula (((((.

I actually saw another shirt which I quite liked but it didn’t have my size so problem solved la. Unless I suddenly wear XXL tomorrow. Sigh. At times like this I really wished I wore odd sizes of clothing lor. The other day at the storewide 50% sale at Lea Centre in Miri, most of the nice shoes left were like sizes 11 and 12. And I wear size 9 (and discovered I have a talent of stuffing my feet into size 7′s!!! woohoo I’m so multi talented wth) but was so tempted to buy them then stuff tissue in them wth. And I also saw a hoodie at Extreme (but it wasn’t extreme at all) but they only have sizes S and L but I was too fat for S but not fat enough for L. Haiz..

Hahaha actually after I talk so much and after posting the photos I don’t feel like buying the shirt anymore. So yeah, no more dilemma!! Yay I love blogging!

The end. Hahahaha this post damn potong steam.

Cya!

ps. Since I don’t think I’ll be buying the shirt, I tell you lah. The shirt’s from Esprit.

Hi people I watched Malaysian Dreamgirl and I now know who the Top 3 contestants are!! I’m soooooo in the ‘IT’ group yo! wth

As I am typing this, I am waiting for Episode 16 Part 3 to load. I’ve watched all the other 4 parts but something’s wrong with Part 3!!! Damn potong steam la! I was happily anticipating the photoshoot part but then it had to stop halfway. Haiz.. now I’m loading it for the 4th time. So I haven’t watched the full photoshoot yet and hence, whatever I’m going to say about the final photos is totally unbiased!

THE TOP 3:

#1 Cindy

Ok Just because I mentioned her first doesn’t mean she’s my favourite. I’m not entirely sure if Cindy’s photogenic enough to be a top model. I don’t think any of her photos are THAT strong except for her White Summer set of photos where she smiled like there’s no tomorrow and made me feel as though tomorrow doesn’t even matter that much anymore wth

With a smile like that, I think Cindy can conquer the commercial type of modeling but I think top models should have an edge to them that can make them shine in the high fashion industry where a single thread costs 50 bucks wth. And sadly, Cindy doesn’t really possess that edginess.

Nonetheless, I do think Cindy has a lot of potential to be a mainstream entertainer. She doesn’t look her best in still frames but she’s actually quite pretty (with the correct lighting) in the Malaysian Dreamgirl videos. I think she can really go a long way if she decided to pursue acting. The latest episode showcased her talent in the acting field quite well but I think every now and then that ‘accent’ comes back and it may turn some people off. But seriously, what’s with all the bashes saying she has a ‘fake’ accent?? Can you define a ‘real’ accent for me please and thank you? Unfortunately, since she has been labeled as the ‘bitch’ in the house earlier on, she might need to work hard to be the protagonist instead of the antagonist in a show.

Omg her expression here damn scary and the player had to stop there!

Personally, I don’t know if Cindy is actually smart (because it’s such a subjective measurement) but I do really feel that she’s wise. In episode 16, she SAID that she wanted to win the show for the exposure and I think that is very, very wise of her. Seriously damn wise okay?

Winning the Nissan Latio and all those vouchers is great and all but they won’t be long lasting. The winner might spend all her vouchers and cash prizes buying overpriced stuff in a jiffy and end up with nothing but a whole lot more junk and *poof* end of career. So for her to want to get more exposure from the show is like a really ideal thing to do.

But again, I emphasized that she “SAID” that she wanted the exposure because I’m pretty sure exposure’s not the only thing she wants la. Duh. Everyone also wants a new car and free shopping vouchers la. She might be saying it just to make people like me think that she’s wise. Tsk tsk tsk. Cunning. (hahaha wth damn two-faced la first say she’s wise later say she’s cunning)

Her latest photo isn’t exactly pretty, but it looks classy and regal. I think it’s one of her best non-smiling shots because even though she wasn’t looking right into a camera, I do feel some intensity in the face. (OMG I talk like Tyra Banks wth)

Sigh. I’m damn long-winded la. Talk about one contestant only already take so damn long. Ok next!

#2 Hanis

This photo is hands down the best of the bunch! Just like in her Couture Batik shot, she has outshined everyone!! Her face looks somewhat disproportionately large, but still gorgeous nonetheless. When I saw the photo of the Top 3 at the Malaysian Dreamgirl homepage, my eyes went straight to her! I think the photo is one that would make me stop and stare for a while when flipping through a magazine.

Even before watching the show, I had fancied Hanis just from looking at the Malaysian Dreamgirl Gallery. From her earlier photos, I felt that she had a lot of potential, her photos were only very ‘safe’ and not totally outstandingly good or bad, but her photos were good. But again, ‘just good’ isn’t enough.

But as the show progressed, I felt her hardwork had paid off and I truly see that her potential is developing into visible talent.

Sad to say, her White Summer photos were not exactly great but unlike everyone else in the whole wide world, I thought her Wella Inspiration shot was pretty intense.

The intensity is sooo there!! For me, she looked ‘fierce’ instead of ‘I’m so mad at you I’m gonna bite off your head, sucker!’ but the overly done make up (especially the eyebrows) kind of spoiled the photo as a whole.

Nonetheless, she wasn’t eliminated after that shoot and has then continued to prove that she’s a very, very, very strong competitor in the competition. Her sweet looks and personality proved to appeal to the public, thus causing the influx of her votes in the competition I’m guessing. Well, not only the public likes her, fashion designers seem to fancy her a lot too. In MIFA (is it MIFA?) she appeared like 4 or 5 times on the catwalk? That says a lot you know? If you want to stay in the modeling world, you need to be able to book many many many jobs (macamla I know sangat , but it’s common sense la haiyo) and Hanis has proven that she fits the taste of more than just 1 designer.

This is easily the best photo that week and maybe the entire competition. I love the effects added to the photo and I think she looked gorgeous from head to toe. Unlike the other girls’ photos that week, she had more constricted movements but she looked long, poised and elegant. I was definitely blown away by this photo! Totally rocks my socks!!

Personally, I think Hanis should win and I think she will eventually win the competition unless everyone d

ecides that since she’s going to win anyway, might as well not vote for her and then maybe someone else will win la.

I don’t doubt Hanis will go a very long way in the entertainment industry, whether it be in modeling, hosting or acting, but the thing that I’m worried about is that the Manis Hanis (damn gross la why you guys address her as such?!) that we have all grown to love so much might be polluted by the darker side of the entertainment world. We don’t want her to be the next Britney Spears, do we?

#3 Adeline

ADELINE IS KILLING ME WITH THIS ANGLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That angle didn’t work here:

It worked a little better here because of the brightness of it all:

AND FOR GOODNESS SAKE IT DIDN’T WORK HERE EITHER:

I think we should all sign a petition to remove that Wella shot of hers so that her portfolio wouldn’t be completely ruined by it. Sigh. Was that really her best shot???!!

The biggest problem with Adeline is that she has the goods but she’s not bringing it to the table!! (wah I watch too much ANTM. sound like another Tyra Banks.. “but only ONE will be AMERICA’S next TOP MODEL” wth) She appears to have flawless fair skin, a great smile and quirky eyes. In the videos, she does look pretty and presentable most of the time but her beauty seriously doesn’t translate into her photos. I seriously don’t know why in almost all her photos, it’s always chin down, face straight on and eyes staring almost upwards. It’s her worst angle ever, OKAY???!!!!

Her best shoot was definitely the White Summer shoot. I think her photos are on par, if not better, in comparison with Cindy’s. Her smile looks natural and effortless and that’s the look I think she’s suited to.

Apparently, she won the acting challenge in Episode 16. Although I personally didn’t understand how and why, I think they might have seen that ‘X-Factor’ in her and if they saw it, then other people might see it as well.

But haiz, this photo is really not good la. The light only reached half her face and made her look like she had been punched by some guy with a seriously big, strong fist! It’s definitely not good enough for her to win the competition.

I don’t think Adeline deserves to win because at this point, she hasn’t shown that she is able to blow minds and show her full potential in most of her photos. Her fluency (or lack of) in English is sadly also going to make it more difficult for her to break into the market where almost everyone is not only pretty, but extremely articulate as well.

No doubt she has a lot of potential to be a famous celebrity, but right now, she still isn’t as versatile as Hanis or as ‘memorable’ as Cindy.

By the way, I noticed that Hanis’ and Adeline’s poses look very similar and created this very annoying .gif animation hehehe:

Can see the resemblance or not?

Girls That I Think Should Have Stayed Longer In The Competition:

Fiqa was my favourite (alongside Hanis, in fact, I liked her more) before I even watched the show itself. I love her look! She looks totally unique, like the type that make you go “Hmmm.. I think she’s Chinese, but then again she doesn’t look totally Chinese-y”. I think she was one of the most eye-catching contestants and really thought she would win but sigh, no point talking too much about evaporated water wth. But I’m sure she’s going to condensate back into water wth.

I really thought Jay would at least make it to the Top 3 but she didn’t. To me, Jay is the type of person who would turn heads everytime she walks past anyone. She’s tall and slender, and she has unconventional features. She looks like the type of who would make me go “Wow she should be a model” and I’m sure she will eventually.

Even if they didn’t win the competition, I’m sure they’ll be very successful in the modeling world since the show has helped expose them to the industry. Modeling agencies would be stupid if they didn’t sign them.

Some problems With The Malaysian Dreamgirl Show I Wish To Address:

1. To me, the editing is really weird. One second, the girls were in a studio exercising and doing some choreographic dance moves, the next, some girl’s on the phone gossiping about other people. I was hoping to see a more smooth storyline at least. A more obvious chronological order of events would be better in my opinion.

2. The host Sazzy Falak is as dry as eating potato crisps when you’re having a sore throat. Her comments are so brief, they sound so repetitive and almost half-hearted. It sounded like she just wanted to skip the whole thing and just tell them who got eliminated already! Maybe it’s cuz she doesn’t like standing while judging so that’s why she tries to rush everything. Someone get her a chair please!!

3. Why does Jimmy Lim always have wind in his hair??!!

I think that’s about what I can talk about la. Need to do some research of malignant melanoma (whatever it is) now. ((((((((((

Random: I was so disappointed that Adeline’s face looked so dark and decided to invert that photo. And turns out, it looks better like this!

The two photos look better as they are though:

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Cindy

Hanis – Hopefully the first Malaysian Dreamgirl

Cya!

Sigh. Sorry to start this post with a sigh but really, sigh. I have so much to blog about, there are so many photos that are still in my laptop waiting to get edited and uploaded and even on my Flickr account, there are already photos that have been uploaded but I haven’t had the time to blog about the event itself.

In less than 10 hours, I’ll be on a flight back to KL. Miri has treated me very well and I feel like I’ve done so many things here. How I wish I could type at the speed of light and just shower you guys with everything that’s happened in the past 6 days. But I can’t. So I’m just going to blog about the more ‘major’ events.

Yesterday (since it’s past midnight) Ctah and I initiated this reunion since we were both in Miri and rotting at home. Apparently all the matrix people have come home and bam! We managed to organize a mini reunion of 6 ex-Kolejians and Tres’ friend (hahaha damn kesian her la. keep helping us to take photos only LOL)

#1 Desserts
I purposely chose Desserts because:
a) it’s now almost humanly impossible to get a parking space at Bintang Plaza.
b) we can talk while having ice cream at the same time! Oh how I love ice cream!

Group pic! L-R Val, Olie, Tres’ friend , Tres, Sha and Me!

Yes, so sad I was the only guy. Edwin had a stomachache today and couldn’t go at the very last minute. Shane went to Labuan according to Seetah. Wel lost his phone and only saw my Friendster message 3 hours ago. THE MOST UNFORGIVABLE WAS RAYMOND WHO’D RATHER GO OUT WITH ANOTHER FRIEND INSTEAD OF US!!!

I think I gave them quite a shock with my new hair and all. I’m still thinking if I should post my high school photos just to clarify why they were so shocked. It’s been at least a year since I last saw most of them. Oh how I miss the times when we used to stomp around Kolej like it was no one’s business. I think I chose the right spot. Desserts isn’t as busy as McD so we can freely talk about everyone we wished to.

So fun catching up with you guys!! And I’m still recovering from knowing the fact that so much has happened in a little over a year. Some people have lost their loved ones. Others have gotten married and given birth! But there were names I couldn’t remember because.. well, I have bad memory

#2 Kolej Tun Datu Tuanku Haji Bujang
7 of us squeezed into Olie’s car as she drove us back to our old school!!!!!!! This is when I wished I could drive! ((((

Damn Kolej is filthy now! I saw newly constructed buildings but there was so much cement and sand around. Everything just looked so much smaller this time around. Ctah and I felt the same way about it. Maybe we’ve grown? Even the corridor looks like such a tight space now. I still remember running back and forth, receiving glances from during everyone else in class during the ongoing lessons. I don’t miss those times.

But it really felt seriously nostalgic to be back in that place where I’d spent my 5 years of adolescence at. So much has changed and everything seemed so much older and dirtier now. For a split second I felt glad that I’ve already graduated because I don’t think I’d fare well under such circumstances.

Sorry it’s getting late so I might as well just skip to the photos. It’s of course obligatory to snap photos at your old school!!

sigh why was the chair covering me? Sorry the photo’s very dark because I don’t have time to edit. Notice Olie’s Juicy Couture bag on the table? The photo was taken in some random class. I think it might have been 3 Yakin. And I was from 3 Cekal so yeah.. WHATEVER~ Hahahaha..

Hahaha I think this will be the only time that it’s OKAY to sit on top of a chair on top of a table.

4 5 Yakin people back in 5 Yakin!!! We even saw Mdm Ling Ling’s handwriting. They were learning vectors. Wait til they learn A Levels Vectors la. I think I failed the first time and I think that says something hahahaha.

I love this photo in full size!!! It’s my favourite photo of the whole bunch. Damn blogger makes all the photos so distorted and pixelated. Seetah said that that place bears some significant memories?? Hmmm.. as long as I look hot wth.

Photos with our bus!! Well at least it used to be.

Someone teach me a new pose already!! The hand on hips thing is making MYSELF bored.

The only good candid photo of the whole day wth

Sha looks damn good here!!! So modelesque (however you spell it)

#3 Esplanade
Okay now let me be a good tour guide and post beautiful photos of our beautiful beach in Miri. None of the photos in this entire post has been photoshopped so prepare to be dumbstruck by the beauty of the unedited gorgeousness of nature!

I haven’t been there for I can’t remember how long and I definitely wasn’t dressed to go to the beach!! Hahaha.

Look at that shade of purple!! I’m not being biased although I do like the colour purple.

Pretty!!

Little kids playing gaily by the shore. (pretend as if they look damn kao happy can?)

I love how this looks a little misty.

This photo doesn’t really have a focus cuz I was just snapping away with my phone like mad.

Sun almost setting…

You may use this as your wallpaper!!!

Sunset. Damn beautiful until can cry already wth

Seetah, me, Tres and Olie.

The best background you could ever ask for

#4 Everyone, meet:

Val and Sha

Tres Half Cup wth

Seetah Baby Tofu

Olie, We are so IT yo!

Love you guys loads! I had a blast today! Thanks Olie for driving us around! And thanks Ctah for most of the photos!!! Oh and don’t trust the date on the photos. The outing was on 26 April 2008.

The wind from the fan is spiraling towards me. I remember that exact same feeling I had on the 6th floor that night. Standing by the open window, I felt the wind coming out of nowhere before I felt it in my hair. As swiftly as the wind brought my hair to poke against my eyes, it brought a feeling I had never felt before – homesickness.

Living with 5 other people whom you know nothing more than their names and what course they’re doing sounds as lifeless as it is to live through. A proof that a house is not a home.

And that’s what I’ve been living through for the past 2 months.

Everyday, I was just going through the motions. Waking up at 7.30 and going to bed at 12 midnight. Greetings of cheerful ‘Hi’s but never really bothered to stop for a chat. Lights turned off and reading notes from my laptop. Sometimes I felt as if I could see in the dark. Each layer of darkness seemed luminescent compared to one another. If that even made sense.

It’s already the 6th day I’ve been back at home now. All is well. All was well. Time had never passed so quickly. I remember getting off the plane that day with my uncomfortably long hair. In less than 36 hours, I will be heading towards that 6th floor again. It’s nothing more than a place to stay.

Not a single day of the week went by without me missing you guys in great depth.
High school friends.
College mates.
University inhabitants

Sometimes I wish I could stop the time but duh time waits for no one. I went to college on my own. And I got into Medicine alone. It freaks me out that no one within the vicinity has been with me for more than 5 years. Where did everyone go? Near? Far? Feels so out of reach.

I’ve been forced to move on. It’s the only way to go by. Getting swallowed by the waves of nostalgia will only make me indignant.

Reminding myself I’m there for a reason is the only thing that keeps me going. I’m there for a reason. I’m there for me. At the end of the day, that’s all that matters.

I know this feeling will pass. Just like every other, it won’t last.

But at this very point in time, as I hit the ‘Publish’ button, I feel alone.