Hey everyone! Sorry to keep you waiting for updates on my blog (if you’ve actually been waiting, that is). I’m back in Miri! I’ll be going back to KL on Friday morning and it’s already Tuesday night but I haven’t done anything more productive than to eat all things chocolate – ice cream, cookies and wafers. I can’t believe September is ending! Seems like just yesterday *singsong tone* when we were still preparing for Grace’s birthday, writing and practicing the song. And that was early September!

I haven’t been blogging much not because I’ve nothing to blog about. It’s the complete opposite. There’s just too much to talk about and I don’t even know where or how to start. Everytime I feel like blogging, I open my folders of photos and sift through the potential materials and end up staring at all the photos longer than I should. Then I get too lazy to blog wth.

I can’t believe that I only have 5 posts so far this month! This is such a new low for my beloved blog

Anyway, today I’m going to post all the jump shots that I haven’t posted because I have such a great time looking at all of them. They never fail to put a smile on my face whenever I spot the talent that my friends secretly possess.

Me and BFF after the 1st semester midterm exam. I think Wai Beng took these photos!! Not bad not bad.

It was Tie Day. Hence, the golden tie around my waist hehe

Me and BFF in front of the carless road in front of the ‘hotel’ we were staying at.

This was the last ‘jump shot’ of the night before my battery officially died off.

Only exmom has his feet off the ground! hahaha and Nick kinda has his too…

BFF’s signature pose. Niyi is in the air too! What a surprise!

Exmom is quite good at this hor? It must have been his first time taking shots like these.

HAHAHAHAHAHA.

Hmmm.. let’s see who’s in the air.. NO ONE!

Again, HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

I look bad here But at least I’m up in the air

This is an interesting shot imo.

Ready, Get Set.

JUMP!

HOHOHO I AM SO TALENTED. But my face damn ugly in this shot

YAY! Almost everyone got it this time!! I like Patrik’s pose. It’s kinda goofy meets edgy wth. And JY looks like Ali Baba for some reason.

That’s all!

Cya!

ps. I coloured my hair, AGAIN. Just when people are kinda getting used to the almost-black-haired me huh? And the colour wasn’t the colour I asked for, as usual. I asked for ash brown but the colour turned out to be something else.. But I still like it. It looks like the colour I had when I first dyed my hair. It’s safe.. and boring in a way.

XOXO

Emotions can be so unpredictable sometimes. One moment I can feel so happy, so positive, so psyched but the next it’s as if the blue skies had turned black in the blink of an eye and I can feel so gloomy, so impatient and ever so depressed.

Today my feelings changed from utter crap to total happiness.

Jo said she quoted me on her blog that ‘you don’t need a reason to be happy’ but I don’t remember ever saying that. I guess I just create amazing phrases subconsciously and that’s no surprise wth. But if I really did say that, I’d like to just add that happiness can be amplified too.And unlike upsizing photos, amplified happiness loses none of its original quality.

I understand why the lecturers never let go of making us let go now. Letting go really makes the horizon seem so much clearer. Letting go makes all problems seem more solvable. Letting go sparks off a whole new beginning.

I learnt the first step to letting go is to lower my expectations for people. Why expect so much if you don’t think they’re going to meet your expectations? All this while I’ve been quite arrogant I would say. Not expecting those whom I love to treat me the way I treat them. Not expecting people to keep my secrets like how I’d keep theirs. Not expecting anyone to understand any of my highly veneered posts just because they think they know me but they really don’t. Not expecting people to not get offended when they read this.

For the past 2 weeks or so I had sidetracked. And it really hurt. Expecting hurts. Shoot to the stars and land on the moon? Yeah it’s right if you’re talking about exams.

I’m going back to my non-expectant, arrogant self. Who cares if you won’t like it? I won’t expect you to.

As far as I’m concerned, I’m happy now.

Exmom, I’m really happy for you I don’t really know why, but I just really am.

Rachel, thanks for the vege you bought me. It was really nice. But kinda spicy. And oh! A lot too

Guard at the Guardhouse, thanks for shaking my hand, telling me I look tired, telling me to take care. This is oh-so-random but it was very sweet.

Ali, thanks for making me hug you so many times but errr I don’t know why.

That’s all.

Cya!

ps. I went to take sticker photos again!!! I scanned the photos I have using the scanner in the Histopath lab and here they are

This photo’s really plain. Long story why it’s so plain but two words can sum it all up: Patrik’s fault.

This photo’s blur because I only have the very small version of this photo but I stretched it to match the size of the other two I kinda like this one because I look hot in an ugly way wth.

Everyone’s smiles look very nice here. Except for 2.

XOXO

YAY! Finally a post with loads of nice photos of myself and actually quite an up-to-date one!

Last Saturday (13 Sept hohoho only 6 days ago wakakakaka I’m so fast at updating my blog ….) we crashed Tony Roma’s (love that place!) at Cineleisure (love that place too!!) for Sarah’s 19th birthday!!!

Happy. birthday. girl.

Nah just pulling your leg. It was actually Grace’s 20th birthday!

One of my favourite photos of the night! The fan sprayed errr water sprinklets? and I love the effect very very much Maybe I should start taking photos in front of water-spraying fans lol

It was a night of great food, great songs *cough cough*, great dresses, great laughs, great present wrappers (courtesy of Popular Bookstore wth) and bad surprises.

We planned the party a week prior to the real thing without her noticing (I hope). Rachel and I (kinda) wrote her a song and Sarah and Rachel composed the melody. Nick compiled the ’20 Things We Like About Grace’ and I designed the photo to be put in the photo frame hohoho. Okay very lazy wanna tell you guys the rest of the details wth.

In short, it was supposed to be a surprise party la. Jason (Grace’s boyfriend) was supposed to bring her to Tony Roma’s for a ‘dinner for two’ and we were supposed to surprise then serenade her with our awesome song there. I was almost prepared to humiliate myself and never step into Cineleisure again until we found an open space (which is actually the exit for the basement) near Tony Roma’s and that was a total lifesaver!

So we sang her the song, presented her with the present and lo and behold. SHE FREAKING DIDN’T CRY. Nyeh.

Photo time!

This is a what we got when exmom tried to take a photo of me, BFF and himself. Spot Patrik’s disgusting open mouth in the background.

This is what we got when BFF tried to take a photo of the 3 of us together. Sigh this is why I love them so much. They’re such a bunch of selfless people!! Just like me.

Wai Beng’s yummy Roma Burger.

Pat’s super scrumptious sirloin thingy in between 2 pieces of bread wth which is really yummy. I shall order that if I ever go back to Tony Roma’s.

Nick’s yucky burger.

Rachel’s quite yummy prawn pasta which was a tad dry though. I sound like I leeched off everyone’s plates which is actually quite true la no wonder I’m so fat wth. I ordered some steak and ribs but no photos because they looked like piles of meat on a big plate lol. which they are. after finishing all those meat I felt like a total carnivore and the next day I totally considered being a vegetarian wth. No kidding.

Me and Grace. I like this photo too! Pat was taking a photo of us using Muru’s SLR with flash and *poof* we took this photo without using my camera’s flash! Did you get what I meant?

Grace and Nick.

Then Sarah came into the picture.

Then Rachel came into the picture. We took a lot of photos in that manner (using Muru’s SLR though. Translation: We will never get to see the photos ever again), where we started only with 2 or 3 people then more and more started sticking their fat faces into the frame. It was fun

Birthday girl opening her present. Jun Yet, Pat and I rushed to get a new photo frame, wrapping paper and then we had to borrow cellotape from Popular’s Information counter to wrap it there. it didn’t look very bad though. Sigh why am I so talented???

Grace’s reaction to her present! I’d show you how it looked like but then you would probably copy our idea *kedekut ilmu wth* Anyway…… I’m glad she liked it. I’ll show it to you guys next time When the internet isn’t being such a bitch.

Sarah and I. The butterfly on her cheek was for her performance on Friday night. She walked everywhere with it until Sunday night. =.=

Me and BFF. I like this photo. Only after I retouched the heck out of my shirt.

Group photo with the birthday girl. Wai Beng wasn’t there though, she went home early.

The guys.

Us again. I loveeeeeeee this photo because I think I look good here *perasan*. But then, I look good in almost all my photos anyway *bimbotic pose wth* Well, the ones that make it to my blog anyway. Was on the phone with BFF btw

My signature pose. Kinda. I like this photo too because I didn’t have to retouch the heck out of it. I only had to fix my red eye hohohohoho normally my eyes aren’t even big enough to get red eyes in photos *sad emo emo emo emo sad wth*

Rachel and BFF.

BFF, Dan and I. We look extra happy because we managed to halau Pat who tried to ruin the photo.

Muru and I. This is probably the only normal photo I have with him.

Three guys playing the guitar with passion and oh so much emotion. And they sucked.

Me and Rachel. The captions are getting shorter and shorter because I still have 290372084 photos to upload.

Rachel and BFF and exmom who looked like he was sniffing BFF’s sleeve.

woops. sorry Rachel! Didn’t realise your face was sort of cut in the middle of two mirrors.

Nah. That’s a little better.

Pat and BFF. This is a good photo But…

This is an even better one! For obvious reasons that I don’t even have to point out.

The background of this photo is actually quite cool don’t you think? I mean the buildings and not the two random guys.

Trying to make me a lamp post. Hmmph

Me and exmom. This photo is blur .. but it’s the best one out of the few I took with him

Me and BFF

BFF and I.

BFF and I again.

Guess who???!! Ok enough (for now). Let’s get back to the birthday girl

This is Grace cutting her cake.

This is Grace cutting her cake again.

This is Grace blowing the candles wth I’m so un-creative at captions

This is Grace taking out the candles with her mouth. Hahahaha my captions are so boring. but who cares.

BFF, exmom and I. Again.

Bff and I. What a rare combination right? Totally never seen the 2 of us in the same photo!

I look a tad too happy in this photo. I think Nick and Grace know how this photo came about.

The view of The Curve at night is AWESOME.

Totally worth the last of my camera battery and memory.

Last but not least, a super duper clear photo of me and Grace.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY GRACE!!

Cya!

XOXO

ps. I’ll post up all the jump shots in a separate post. They deserve it.

I have grown.

I’ve learnt to care less about what people say. or think.

I’ve learnt to not go all out for those unworthy of my time and effort.

I’ve learnt that talk is cheap when not coupled with action.

I’ve learnt to embrace my fatness and modest vanity like I used to.

I’ve learnt that Han Sheng, Jun Yet and Nick are some of the most kepo guys in medschool. Probably even more kepo than exmom and Pat. So freaking kepo until I cannot tahan also.

I’ve learnt that I’m not in medschool to evaluate some unknown person’s supposedly popular article, hence my suckiness at it.

I’ve learnt that life’s a lot more than just good grades and birthday celebrations. There are so many little things that bring so much meaning to it. Like Joann‘s funny O’s.

I developed a liking to take photos of myself yawning wth.

No. I wasn’t kidding.

I developed a liking of taking super close up shots of myself although they look pretty bad.

And even closer shots….

When I first took the photo I liked it damn a lot until I started editing it so now I think it’s ugly but I’m still posting it up anyway. Nyeh.

I developed skills of taking very pretty portraits. Well, portrait-like photos.

Jo and Evonne.

Stella and HuiRuan.

I developed the courage to post up silly photos of myself. Which are subject to be deleted sooner or later.

This is me looking stressed. I think.

This is me looking errr… like a monkey?

I take awesome jump shots as usual.

Please do not stare at this photo for too long. My butt looks funny wth.

BFF’s only jump shot which is remotely normal hahahhahahahahah No I’m not kidding wth. So I’m posting it up although I look like crap.

That’s all!

Cya!

XOXO

ps. I have taken a lot more photos over this course of time but I am really too busy to even start sorting them out, let alone to actually upload them.

There were times when nothing seemed to make sense, when life seemed like a string of days, when everything I do seemed insufficient and insignificant, when everything I say seemed to spark some sort of hard feelings.

Times when smiles weren’t genuine, laughs were faked, emotions got locked up, indignation led to indifference, when doubts flared up, when expectations couldn’t be met. Times when all seemed to fail, feeling misunderstood happened more than ever, nothing seemed to bear any meaning, suicide seemed like a sane/understandable option.

These are the times when insecurities surface, lies are told, secrets are unveiled, envy seeps deep into the soul, breaking points are reached. And life becomes a fucking bitch that I didn’t want to face.

But why? Why do things have to be that way?

Why lie? How sure are you that lying can cover up the truth forever?

Why keep a secret if you can’t hold it in forever?

Why envy if it’s out of your league?

Why care so much about what other people say? Do they know you better than you know yourself?

Why be sad when you can be happy? Why waste time on sorrow when joy is waiting for you?

Why are things harder said than done?

Why preach if you don’t even practice it? Talk is cheap when not paired with action, you know?

Why ask so many questions?

Why make life so complicated?

Those times are over for me. I went into the darkest tunnel thinking I was all alone. I came out knowing I wasn’t the only one going through it.

When life is moving too fast, take a step back to reflect on how you got to where you are in the first place and why you even took that path. It’s always better to slow down and check than to speed up on the wrong track.

Hope you got what I meant.

Happy 100th post to me!

Cya!

XOXO